Tired

I'm really, really tired. I'm not sleepy so much as my body is just exhausted. I biked another 10 miles after work today (3rd time this week) and I had thought that doing a shorter amount more frequently would be less exhausting, since it isn't that much more frequently. But I've had my bike in my car for the past few days, and the tires were definitely low tonight, which made me even more sluggish. I just keep telling myself, if I don't have to work a full day, running around the plant and on my feet all day, I'll have more energy for biking on Ragbrai. And, I'll get to chill out all afternoon and sit around and nap if I want to. True vacation - I can't wait!

But for tonight - I'm tired!! and I want my husband back. Not only do I miss him, but it'd be nice to have him around to run to the grocery store if we're out of milk, or to help me set up my computer in the basement, or carry out the paper recycling. I guess it could be worse - some women have this exhaustion all the way through pregnancy, and I had only a bit the first trimester and some reprieve until now. But I'm so wiped out now it's hard to put it all in perspective. And it doesn't help that I've had troubles getting comfortable enough to fall asleep at night, and I've had some bad dreams lately too. I actually woke myself up after dreaming about food because I was hungry!! I eat ALL day, and it's actually getting hard to keep myself not hungry and not low on blood sugar. I can't believe the day has arrived when it's hard to think about eating MORE food. Wow. And when I'm this tired, it gets harder and harder for me to imagine I'll have the energy to go back to work in any fashion after the kid gets here. I can't keep track of myself and this house - how am I supposed to keep track of a kid, too??

So, I felt like whining tonight -thanks for listening. I'm sure these days will pass quickly enough, but for now I'm just feeling crappy.

On a more fun note, I have started to be able to figure out which baby's body parts are poking me. I'm certain that the other day its bottom was sticking out just under my ribcage, because it was very very hard and I think I could feel its back all the way down my stomach, then. Normally I'm more squishy, and this was definitely feeling the baby. And if I poke, it kicks back! all the time, lots and lots of kicking and readjusting and fidgeting. I guess I shouldn't've expected anything less, considering neither of this kid's parents can sit still either.

I am so in for it. *sigh*