The girls are pretty spoiled. Each of the past two weekends, they've been able to spend some really good quality time with their grandparents. Last weekend was the Clifford show, and Emily had a fabulous time. Audrey got to hang out with my dad after she woke up from her nap and before Emily and her grandmas returned from the show, so that was pretty special for her. And this weekend, we were in Barnum and came back to Des Moines in time for Milo's birthday party. I can't believe he's ONE already! What an awesome kid he is!
It's really starting to set in that I'm in over my head with having another kid. I know that in the end I'll be glad we're a family of 5, but it's intimidating when I think how full my hands are already. I think I may have a slight advantage in that I tend to operate in the jack-of-all-trades category, but when it comes to parenting each of my children, I hate to think that I'm master of none. If there was anything worth doing right, it would be that, wouldn't it? There are times when Audrey's "do it myself" 2YO mind is just too much to deal with... just put your damn shoes on or I will do it for you!!! And I know Emily isn't a whiney girl, but just because she hardly ever does it, doesn't mean it's any easier to tolerate when she does. I just think to myself, how will I be able to mentally handle all this commotion and Audrey's inevitable 3-5 potty accidents per week when I'm nursing a newborn and running on zero sleep? How can I give this new baby girl the same joy and devotion I was able to give Emily?
I'm ready for winter to be over. It snowed most of today, and was cloudy and depressing. It's nice to see it light out when I get up around 6:30 each day, but I'm willing to give that up for daylight savings time and a little bit of light in the evenings. I think it might help my overall attitude. I suppose eating better and getting some exercise might help, too... guess I'll blame winter for my inability to do those things, too.
I also think I'm going to axe the new daycare search. The two places we looked at were both really dull. "We just hang out, no set schedule.." "they'll get enough structure once they get to school..." "we don't watch much TV..." I guess I will take a little bit of dog dander (and whatever else) for someone who genuinely cares about teaching my kids each day. I think the idea of finding a new daycare has been stressful for Emily, just thinking that there's something unknown coming has been enough to make her a bit on-edge. Maybe this fall, if it doesn't work for the baby, I'll look into a center or something. *sigh*
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