Nevermind

So, Audrey is 1, but we won't be having a birthday party because Emily has spent the day throwing up.  I feel so bad for her, because she was so excited about everybody coming to celebrate for her little sister.  But, she probably has the same bug that Travis and I both had earlier this week, and it is NOT FUN.  Fortunately, her stomach is rejecting things straight-off so I don't think she'll have problems at the other end like Trav and I did, but it was not a fun way to wake up this morning, at 5 AM.

We wasted a perfectly good Saturday afternoon on a stupid football game when we could've been celebrating Audrey's birthday.  I have a cake ready, I have presents ready, I have decorations, I have party clothes for the birthday girl, but I COULDN'T GET ANYBODY INTERESTED at the time that it was relevant so there is no party.  Audrey misses out, Emily misses out, and I MISS OUT.  Goddammit, the first birthday is really more about moms anyway.  Hallelujah, I made it through the first year, up all night, carrying her everywhere, worrying about every little thing, and now she's not a baby anymore and we made it!!  Yay.

So, we'll see how we make the most of this day.  I'm obviously annoyed, and I just wanted to make this announcement:

I AM NEVER SCHEDULING ANYTHING IN MY LIFE AROUND ANY KIND OF FOOTBALL GAME EVER AGAIN.

It wasn't worth it for my senior recital and it wasn't worth it for Audrey's birthday and, you know, it's just not worth it for me to ever say that I'll allow something for someone else because I'll get it back later.  How stupid am I that I keep expecting that to happen???

So If you never see me at a tailgate, that is not my problem.  If you want to see me, come see me!  call me! email me!  don't expect me to change my plans and my life so i can shout over loud music in the cold or heat or sun or rain or whatever stupid weather they've decided to be out in.  I will never again disregard what's best for my kids' schedule, or pretend to care about a bad football team who plays well once in a while.  I care just enough to maybe watch them on TV or check the score later if it happens to be convenient, and say "yay" or "rats" - that's it! And if you aren't okay with that, well, you can re-evaluate your own priorities or make an effort to see me. Enough.