On my own, at last!!

Emily is done nursing!!!!

I've gotta admit, I'm sad for a few reasons, and excited for a few others. I'm sad because it means she's not really a baby anymore, and as soon as she gets up and starts walking and running around,she'll officially be a toddler and that's really scary to me to see how fast it all goes! I'm sad because it means I can no longer gorge myself at every meal, although I was getting kind of tired of that and my appetite has seemed to have re-regulated itself anyway. Most of all, I'm sad because I used to nurse her back to sleep sometime between 5 and 6 AM and she'd sleep until 7, but now when she wakes up because she's hungry, she doesn't go back to sleep - and neither do I!! We have both been pretty cranky the last few days, but we're getting through it. Last night, Emily had a bedtime snack of crackers right before she hit the hay, and that helped her sleep past 6, so we'll figure this out. We're getting there!

Most of all - I'm relieved to have some energy back! You would not believe how much Emily can eat, and it's crazy to think that not very long ago I had to process a good portion of those calories for her. Ooof. I think I'd feel more energetic if I hadn't been up at 5:20 the past few days, but I'm hoping I can get in a groove and maybe start exercising before Emily gets up in the morning - if we can get her to sleep long enough!

I am also going to call the eye clinic tomorrow to schedule my lasik. :) I do feel selfish about being so agressive in weaning Emily, but she seems fine with everything, and I just want to be able to see! My contacts just do not work anymore, and my glasses are scratched and bent and really not that attractive. So, having this done will be good for my self-esteem and hopefully take care of some headaches, and enable me to wear sunglasses whenever I need to. I can't wait!!