Last Wednesday was my birthday, and next Wednesday is Travis's birthday, so we went on a date tonight. We left Emily with friends who have a 21-month old that thinks "Emmie" is pretty fun, so she had a good time too. She's at the stage that unless she has a need where she specifically needs me (hungry, mostly), she's fine as long as there's stuff going on. It was nice to reconnect with Travis and remember how fun it was to be carefree DINKs (dual income no kids). It was nice to have a classy, delicious, relaxing dinner, and have a chance to think uninterrupted, larger-scale.
I am surprised how much I like working part-time. Even though I wasn't crazy about working with warranty data and I don't know that much about my new job, I kind of like still having the responsibility of a job. There are some real rewards, although I wonder if my self-confidence is so low that I'll do anything to hear someone say I did something well. But, I did hear that at my mid-year review, and it felt good, so I guess I'll take it. I also wonder if I'm a sucker for hard work. In high school and college, I had such an insane schedule and I was so busy, but I didn't really need to. Am I really that much of a masochist that I'm overscheduling myself again, just because I can?? Just in case, I am being careful to put Emily's wellbeing first, and when the benefits of her being at daycare no longer outweigh the disadvantages, I'll quit. Maybe it just feels good to work when I know how easy it would be to quit. Like the herd of cows that is always trampling fences to get out, but if there's corn in the trough you could leave the gate open. A nice little farmy analogy for all of you Iowans-turned-cityslickers out there.
Anyway, that's the latest on me and my work situation. All that agonizing, and it's turning out fine!
As for the latest in Emily - she is starting to "hop." She bounces up and down while sitting, and actually scoots herself forward a fraction of an inch at a time. It's surprising to look back at her and have her not be exactly where I left her! She especially likes to bounce while sitting on my bed, which, although queen-size, is not big enough to contain her reach. She's starting to pull herself up to see things, but the same thing trips her up here that keeps her from getting her legs under her to crawl: her feet end up facing each other and get pinned there!! I hope she figures out how to untangle them, just for the sake of her own frustration. I'm perfectly happy to have her not be mobile yet, but I'm very happy that she's starting to figure out how eating works. She really likes sweet potatoes, and cereal and green beans are all right too. Still working on all the other new tastes for her, but she'll get it. I tried Cheerios the other day, and she liked to nibble on the singular O that I'd hold up to her two tiny teeth. It was pretty cute. :) Most of all, she smiles and laughs all the time now. She's so joyful! I just love it!
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